im having one of those nights where u watch one youtube video and watch a related video and 3 hours later ur watching an hour long conspiracy documentary about how the illuminati killed michael jackson
this has been happening to me a lot lately
Strong and Free
I am in the process of changing my life. I have been confused for far too long about which people deserve my time and what I deserve from them. I am done being someone who is “too nice.” I am done being someone who always gives people the benefit of the doubt. I know that people have issues and I empathize with that but no more excuses. What kind of person am I, if I let people walk all over me and then talk about how people don’t deserve to be taken advantage of. A hypocrite, that’s who. I know I am strong enough to stand up to them, but for far too long I have been afraid. Of what? The things everyone’s afraid of – rejection, being alone, getting hurt, or hurting other people. Well that’s enough. I would rather be utterly alone than treated in a way that is less than what I deserve. In a way that’s exactly like being alone, but with the illusion of having people who care, which actually… is more damaging. I am very fortunate to have people in my life who are supportive and loving who I have overlooked for far too long, not intentionally, but because the people who use smoke and mirrors have distracted me from them. I was never able to tell the difference. Well, now I can and I want to be the type of person who can give the people who deserve good friends, my friendship. As for the people who might get hurt by my rejection… if you kick a wild animal don’t expect it to lie down and take it. I will not be domesticated. I am alive and free.